Uncategorized – Jay Says

Posted on October 17, 2020October 16, 2020 by Jason — Leave a comment

Time Twizzler

J-MODE – IT’S J-MODE. It IT it IT it’s J-MODE.

WHAT’S UP EVERYBODY we’re goinda be takin’ a look at HTML

see HTML is a massive, grandiose machine – right? I mean it’s the most often used programming language in the entire history of the world, y’know’dy’mean? Hahaaaa … .

What’s up everybody it’s J here comin’ at you from Texas — nah just kidding it’s J-MOOOOOOOOOOOODE. J-MOOOOOOOODE- GO!

HYPATRONIC detrimental experiential modum

I shine a picture light so bright it’s hydrophobic boredom.

FLIP FLIP FLIP

Over here guys – Hey! It’s Jason. You know what’s so neat about cauliflower? It’s got as much starch in it as noodles! Nuahahahaha

Okay guys, don’t kill me. This time I’ll be comin’ after you liiiiike a hornet.

NEEEEEEEEEEEYYYOOOOM MAN WE’RE LIVE COMIN’ AT YOU FROM BOOOOOOOOOOUERJOIOSEEEEEEEEE VILLE GEDDIT!??? ‘CAUSE WE REPRESENT THIS NATION!???? KNOW WHAT I MEAN LIKE, EACH OF US ARE AN INDIVIDUAL CHARACTER TO REPRESENT A MODULAR GIGASYSTEM LIFE CENTRAL HUB? Y’KNOW’DY’MEAN?

BLAMMMMM i just, blew ya mind (know what i’m sayin’)

everything is awesome

Posted on September 18, 2020September 20, 2020 by Jason — Leave a comment

The Plan 2020

The master plan is
1. Save the world
2. Take us to space
3. Communicate with alter-dimensional beings
4. Program our minds to alter reality
5. Create a new language.

Posted on August 19, 2020August 25, 2020 by Jason — 5 Comments

Helplessness

I’m in a place

With a man or woman standing above me

They look out along the horizon

I’m on a ledge hanging underneath them

They can’t see me

My mouth is parched; I can’t shout

They can’t hear me

I want to let go

I’m so alone that the birds watch me every second

The ground looks so comfortable

But I won’t give up

Posted on July 17, 2020August 8, 2020 by Jason — 2 Comments

Intro

Hi, and welcome to my site. After many months of thinking, I finally made the decision to start a blog. The goal here is to document my journey with an avoidant personality disorder. I’m determined to find out if this thing can be conquered, and I’m going to upload everything I can to help scientists develop a greater understanding of such an apparently rare condition. It would be my honour to pose as a testament for a functioning afflicted individual. That being said, it is going to be a very challenging endeavour for me to be brutally honest about my day-to-day experiences and thoughts, but one adage rings true: the truth will set you free. For twenty-three years I’ve been challenged by the unexplainable. It seems only logical to adopt this as a gift, then, a “thorn in my side,” to make me more resilient.

Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:10

In life there are many pains, while some of them are too great to bear. I always say: the tree that knew not of the wind knew not of his roots.

Beginning today I will post updates on my journey through life. It won’t be easy. It will be extremely difficult for me. I will heave and ho, I’ll even scream and shout. My soul will cower in fear. My heart will race like a hummingbird. My strength will some day rise, like the noonday sun.

To give you a rundown of what having a personality disorder is like, it looks like this: most people have an edge, I have a doorway. There is no boundary to me. Nothing sets me apart. I absorb a person’s depression, joy, anger, psychosis, hate, and love. I am …

Trust me, no one else on this earth is more disappointed in themselves than I am. I am a fury, the judge of my actions. My mind is apart from my soul, my body is caught in warfare. How could I not be fury manifest?

Well, there is hope. What is it for me? Come see for yourself.

End.